It’s been a while

its been a while

since i cracked my pen open

or relentlessly typed into my notes

or since papers ran out

but my words and thoughts gushed and gushed

like a waterfall hitting the ground

its been a while

since agitation took the best of me

or since misery and I were the only company

since furiously tapping the keyboard in my phone was my only solace

as i waited for the peace to come

its been a while

since i wrote these unfinished strings of words

these irregular, irrelevant stanzas

loosely hung together with no meaning to be given

except melancholy, anguish and un bloomed chances

its been a while

since my search for meaning encompassed all other searches

or since my body feverishly ached for purpose

since my limbs waited to be anything but numb

scared to loose everything to my mind’s circus

i dont know how long it has been

but its been a while

its good to know

even if its just for a little while